The bride's mother waited until her third glass of champagne to sit down next to me and ask what I'd had done.

It was my ex-husband's wedding. I was fifty-one. She was the mother of the thirty-four-year-old he'd left me for. I told her the truth. Nothing. I'd stopped doing something instead.

For twenty-five years I was Greg's wife. We married at twenty-four. The house on Linden Road, two kids, Christmas mornings, the neighbours round every summer. Twenty-five years of being “the Clarkes.” Then he met someone at work. She was thirty-two when it started. I was forty-nine.

The divorce was quiet and brutal. He got the narrative and the quiet support of all our friends. I got the house and the silence. The first year, people checked in. The second year, it thinned out. By the time our daughter called, it had mostly stopped.

“Mum, I need to tell you something. Dad's getting married. To Sophie. September.”

A pause.

“I want you to come. I know how that sounds. But his whole side is going to be there and I don't want to stand in that room by myself feeling like I have to pick. You're my mum. I want you there.”

I said I'd think about it. I hung up and stood at the bathroom mirror for a long time.

My neck had gone crepey. The lines around my eyes sat deeper than they had a year ago. My hands looked like they belonged to someone ten years older. But it was the expression I couldn't stand. Tired. Worried. As though someone had asked me a question I couldn't quite understand.

I'd started losing words halfway through sentences. Ordinary words. The name of somewhere I'd been. Something I needed from the shop. I'd be talking, feel the gap coming, and say, “Oh, you know what I mean,” before anyone could notice. Then I'd think about it all the way home. Had I sounded stupid? Had they noticed? Was this what I was going to be like now?

At night, I could remember every awkward thing I'd said that day. In the morning, I couldn't remember why I'd opened the fridge.

My GP and I had talked about menopause. The broken sleep. The changes in concentration. The anxiety that seemed to attach itself to things I'd once done without thinking. Understanding the name for it hadn't made getting through the afternoon any easier.

I'd started three diets since Christmas. Each one began with a proper food shop and a promise that this time I'd get myself together. By Wednesday, the vegetables were still in the drawer. I'd have toast standing at the worktop because deciding what to cook felt like another job.

There were trainers by the front door. I'd put them there so I'd have no excuse. Some evenings, I'd sit on the bottom stair looking at them before going back into the living room. Then I'd spend the evening being angry with myself for not going.

I was going to walk into a room where my ex-husband was marrying a gorgeous thirty-four-year-old. And every person in it was going to look at me, then look at her, and do the maths. She'd be laughing. Talking. Moving between tables. I'd be trying to remember someone's name while wondering whether everyone could see how hard I was trying.

The invitation sat on my kitchen counter for three days. I couldn't look at it. I couldn't throw it away. Then I got angry. The next morning I called Joanne.

She's the one who showed up with a bottle of wine the night Greg left and didn't say one stupid thing. She's fifty-three. An A&E nurse. And when we went out for lunch, she was the one suggesting we walk into town afterwards.

She remembered things I'd told her weeks earlier. Had stories about work. Booked weekends away and actually went. She'd been through her own difficult stretch with menopause. I'd listened to her talk about it. But lately, sitting opposite her, I'd find myself wondering where she got the energy to be interested in so many things.

“Emma told me,” she said before I could start. “You're going. End of discussion.”

Then she stopped. “How are you actually doing, Di?”

“Fine.”

“Try again.”

I told her about the invitation. The mirror. The diets. The trainers.

“Sort what out?”

“All of it. Lose some weight. Get fit. Stop being so bloody useless.”

“Stop.”

She said it sharply enough that I did.

“You wouldn't let anyone else talk to you like that.”

That stung. She wasn't wrong.

“I know what I should be doing, Jo. I just don't do it.”

“I know. You've told me about the walks. And the meals. And how tired you are before you've even started.”

She let that sit. “What have you actually been eating?”

I told her. Not the meals I'd planned to make. What I'd actually eaten. Tea. Toast. Something quick at lunchtime. Coffee when I started fading. Whatever required the least thought in the evening.

“Have you talked about that with your GP?”

“Not in that much detail.”

“Then do. The tiredness and the fog deserve proper attention. And nutrition needs to be part of that conversation.”

I looked at the invitation. “I thought you'd tell me to join a gym.”

“You've already joined one.”

I had. The payment went out every month.

Then she started explaining B vitamins. I'd heard of B12. Of course I had. I'd never given much thought to what it actually did.

“Your brain contains billions of nerve cells,” she said. “They pass signals between them. Many of those nerve fibres have a protective covering called myelin. B12 is needed to help maintain that and support normal nerve function.”

“And energy?”

“Several B vitamins help your body release energy from food. They're involved in the work your body is doing all day, whether you're at the gym or sitting at your kitchen table.”

I was quiet. All this time, I'd been treating energy as something I should be able to produce by being stricter with myself.

“Being low in certain B vitamins can contribute to tiredness,” she said. “But we don't know that's your situation just from how you feel. Get it checked. Don't decide everything is menopause, and don't decide everything is a vitamin either.”

“And you?” I asked.

“What about me?”

“How do you finish a shift and still want to go somewhere?”

She understood what I was asking.

“I got help with the menopause symptoms. I stopped skipping proper meals. And I started paying attention to what I was giving my body, instead of expecting it to carry on regardless. A B complex is part of my routine.”

She texted me the label while we were still on the phone.

“All eight B vitamins. Look at the names and amounts on the back.”

For B6, it listed P5P. For folate, 5-MTHF. And for B12, two active forms: methylcobalamin and adenosylcobalamin.

“Two forms?”

“Yes. Both named. Both amounts shown. That's why I sent you the label, not just a picture of the bottle.”

I was sceptical. I'd bought enough things with hopeful descriptions to have a drawer full of them. But this was Joanne. She knew what my days actually looked like. And the wedding was fourteen weeks away.

I followed up with my GP about the tiredness and concentration, and checked the supplement against what I already took. Then I ordered it. When it arrived, I put it beside the kettle. One capsule a day with breakfast, following the directions.

I kept the menopause care I'd already discussed with my GP. I started eating proper meals more regularly too. And I stopped setting myself a new punishment every Monday.

I took the capsule. Ate breakfast. Got on with the day. I didn't wake up as Joanne.

Over the following weeks, it was little things I noticed. One afternoon, I answered an email I'd been moving back to the top of my inbox for days. Then I answered the next one. When I looked up, there were only two left.

Another evening, I opened the fridge and made something with what was in it. I ate sitting down. The next day, I used the rest.

I stood at the postbox for a moment after I'd let go of it. Then I walked home the long way. It was only when I got back that I noticed the trainers on my feet.

Usually, there would have been a whole discussion before leaving the house. How far. Whether I was too tired. Whether there was any point going for ten minutes. That day, I'd needed to post a letter. So I'd gone.

I still wondered how much of what I was noticing came from which change. But I kept noticing. A phone call where I stayed with the conversation instead of waiting for a chance to finish it. An afternoon when I started something after lunch rather than deciding the useful part of the day was over. A shopping trip where I remembered what I'd gone for and came home with an idea for dinner.

Sometimes with Joanne. Sometimes on my own. I started going to the gym I'd been paying for. Nothing heroic. I went in, did what I could and went home. The next time, I recognised the woman on reception.

“Back again?” she said.

“Apparently.”

We both laughed.

One evening, I realised I'd been thinking about what to do at the weekend. For months, I'd mostly thought about what I could get out of.

Week eight, Greg's sister emailed about the seating plan. Table nine. Near the kitchen. I read it twice. Then I put the phone down and finished making dinner. A few months earlier, that email would have had the whole evening.

I'd put music on while I cooked. She stood in the kitchen doorway watching me.

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“Emma.”

“You've got music on.”

“I do occasionally listen to music.”

“You used to.”

I turned the heat down. She came over and leaned against the worktop. We talked while I finished dinner. About her work. A friend of hers. A holiday she was trying to organise.

At one point, we both started telling the same story about her brother. She laughed so hard she had to put her glass down. Then she looked at me.

“I've missed this.”

“What?”

“This. You.”

I had to turn back to the cooker for a moment. Later, she took a picture of me at the table. I let her.

Then I brought my dress. Black. Simple. A neckline I liked. I tried it on, turned towards the mirror and thought about earrings. Then I stopped. I hadn't started with what needed hiding.

Emma had got me to yes. But by then, I was curious about what the evening might be like.

Greg's sister was at the welcome table. She looked up and went still.

“Diane.” A glance at the seating plan. “We weren't—I wasn't expecting you.”

“Emma asked me,” I said. “I'm at table nine.”

I'd rehearsed that moment in the car. In every version, I'd needed to explain myself. Standing there, I found I didn't.

Emma came across the foyer and hugged me hard. Then she held me at arm's length.

“Mum. You look gorgeous.”

“So do you.”

“You all right?”

“Yes.”

She searched my face for a second. Then she smiled.

Greg's sister was still looking at me. “You seem very…”

She didn't finish.

“Well?” I offered.

“Yes. Well.”

“Thank you.”

Greg's niece Lucy was on the steps with her phone. She came down when she saw me.

“Auntie Di. Mum said you probably weren't coming.”

“Well, I've posted the card now.”

She laughed. We started talking about her new job. She told me about her manager. I asked a question. She told me something else.

A few minutes later, Emma touched my arm. “We need to go in.”

I'd forgotten we were standing in the doorway.

I found my table. On the way, I passed two of Greg's golf friends, and one of them said, not quietly enough, “That's Diane.”

I turned. “Hello, Peter.”

He straightened up. We exchanged a few words. I carried on. I didn't need to know what he'd been about to say next.

She was lovely. She looked thirty-four. I waited for the familiar sinking feeling. Then someone asked whether the seat beside me was taken, and I moved my bag.

The ceremony began.

During the speeches, a man two tables away caught my eye after the best man made a joke that went on far too long. One eyebrow lifted. I smiled into my glass.

Later, I saw him again near the doors to the terrace. He smiled first that time. I was talking to Lucy and stayed where I was.

I danced with Emma. Talked to people I hadn't seen in two years. Someone reminded me of a disastrous camping holiday, and I found myself telling the part they'd forgotten. Halfway through, Emma brought me another drink. I was laughing too much to thank her properly.

I'd planned an excuse for leaving after dinner. Something about an early start. I hadn't used it.

Expensively dressed. Carefully made up. It took me a second. The bride's mother.

“Forgive me for being forward,” she said. “I've been watching you all evening trying to work out what you've had done.”

“Nothing.”

She gave me the look you give someone who's being modest on purpose.

“Emma showed us a photograph of you a while ago. You look different.”

“I feel different.”

“Well, whatever it is, I want some. I nearly went upstairs for a lie-down after the speeches.”

I laughed. Six months earlier, I would have been asking whether I could join her.

“I'd got into a habit of thinking everything was a question of trying harder,” I said. “Another diet. Another promise to get myself together. I was exhausted before I'd started.”

She put her glass down. “That sounds familiar.”

“My friend's a nurse. She got me to take the tiredness seriously. Look at what I was eating. What support I needed. I added a B complex to my routine as well.”

“B12?”

“All eight B vitamins. The one I take is by rynw.”

“Write it down for me.”

I took her phone and typed the name into her notes. Greg's sister was one table over. She heard all of it.

The man from the speeches was there, standing beside a large planter.

“Has anyone told you there's a seating plan out here as well?” he asked.

“Am I in your place?”

“Not unless you're hiding from someone called Graham.”

“Does he play golf?”

“Exclusively, judging by the conversation.”

I laughed.

His name was Richard. He was an architect, a partner in a practice I'd heard of. He'd known Sophie through a project years earlier and had stayed loosely in touch with her family.

He asked how I knew the couple.

“I'm the first wife.”

A pause.

“Right,” he said. “Then I expect your invitation took more consideration than mine.”

“You could say that.”

He'd been divorced for five years. He told me that without lowering his voice or making it sound like a confession.

We talked about our children. Then houses. Then a holiday he'd taken where it had rained for nine consecutive days. I told him about Greg putting up a tent inside out. He laughed. I remembered another part of the story and told him that too.

At some point, someone opened the terrace doors and the music got louder. Richard leaned closer to hear me. I didn't lose what I was saying. I didn't wonder whether I was talking too much. I wanted to know what he was going to say next.

We went back inside together. He asked if I'd like another drink. I said yes.

Greg was watching me. Not glancing around the room. Watching.

For a second, I knew exactly what his face was going to do. I'd been married to him for twenty-five years. The little movement at the corner of his mouth. The way he held still when something hadn't gone as he'd expected.

His eyes moved from me to Richard. Then back.

I knew that look. I'd seen it when he'd realised, too late, that something mattered more than he'd admitted. There was no satisfaction in his face. No easy smile. For once, I wasn't the one trying to work out where I stood. He was.

Richard said something beside me. I turned back.

“Sorry?”

“I asked whether you'd like to have dinner sometime. Somewhere with fewer speeches.”

I smiled. “Yes. I would.”

By the time I looked towards the dance floor again, I wasn't looking for Greg.

Emma found me during the last song.

She leaned close.

“You're having a good time.”

“I am.”

“I can tell.”

She squeezed my hand. “I'm so glad you came.”

I had to look away for a second so she wouldn't see my face.

She stood beside me for a moment.

“Sophie's mother hasn't stopped talking about you.”

I waited.

“And Emma says you've been going out more.”

“Yes.”

She looked down at the coat folded over her arm. “I get home from work and that's it. I sit down and the evening's gone. Every Sunday I tell myself the next week's going to be different.”

Silence.

“What was the name of that thing?”

“The Vitamin B Complex by rynw.”

“Is it just B12?”

“All eight. With P5P for B6, 5-MTHF for folate and two active forms of B12. I'll send you the label.”

“Please.”

“And talk to someone about the tiredness. I did.”

She nodded. My taxi arrived.

“Goodnight,” I said, and walked out into the September air.

My phone buzzed before we'd left the drive. Richard. A restaurant name. Thursday?

I typed yes. Then I put the phone in my bag and watched the lights through the window.

When Greg left me for a younger woman, I started seeing everything about myself as evidence. The weight I'd put on. The invitations I declined. The sentence I couldn't finish. Every unfinished plan seemed to confirm something I was frightened might be true. That the interesting part of my life had happened already.

I spent months trying to bully myself back into being the woman I remembered. At that wedding, I laughed halfway through a story and carried on telling it. I didn't notice until later how long it had been since I'd done that.

The B complex didn't give me a new personality. It became part of taking care of the person I'd stopped making room for.

All eight B vitamins in one daily formula. B6 as P5P. Folate as 5-MTHF. B12 in two active forms: methylcobalamin and adenosylcobalamin. Each one named on the label, with its amount alongside it. I didn't have to guess what “B complex” meant inside that particular bottle.

B vitamins have established roles in normal energy metabolism and nervous-system function. Several help reduce tiredness and fatigue. That gave me something more useful to consider than another promise to be stricter with myself.

One capsule a day. Thirty capsules in a bottle.

I thought about what I'd been spending on plans I couldn't keep up with. The gym membership I hadn't used. The diet subscriptions. The shopping that went off while I ate toast. I wanted a routine I could follow and ingredients I could actually check.

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P.S. Sophie's mother asked what I'd had done because she could see something had changed. What she couldn't see was me sitting on the bottom stair months earlier, looking at a pair of trainers. Or the meals I hadn't made. Or how carefully I'd planned to leave her daughter's wedding early. She saw me stay.

P.P.S. If you've tried a B vitamin before, look at what was actually in it. B12 alone and a complete B complex are different formulas. With rynw, all eight are listed, including P5P, 5-MTHF and both methylcobalamin and adenosylcobalamin. Those names don't promise everyone the same result. They tell you exactly what you're choosing.

P.P.P.S. The first changes I noticed wouldn't have made much of a photograph. An answered email. A cooked dinner. A walk after posting a letter. I almost dismissed them because they were such ordinary things. Then Emma stood in my kitchen and said, “I've missed this.”

P.P.P.P.S. Greg's sister asked Emma for the link again the following week. Apparently she'd lost my message. Emma sent it, then rang to ask about Richard. We spent rather longer talking about him.

P.P.P.P.P.S. I had fourteen weeks between the invitation and the wedding. I'd spent the first few imagining what everyone would think when I walked in. On the way home, I was thinking about Thursday.

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